Question: I am Catholic and confess my sins to a priest regularly.
Being a Catholic is like a vicious cycle, it’s like being caught in a
revolving door. There is always this guilty feeling looming over me. It
is awful. My biggest dilemma is converting to another religion after
being a Catholic for so long. The tradition has been with me since I was
born.
Answer: I know exactly what you mean by the "revolving door"
syndrome. After confessing my sins to the priest, I felt good for
a while, knowing that my sins were forgiven. Inevitably the good feeling
evaporated in thin air as soon as I committed another sin. Since it is impractical to go to
confession every day (or even several times a day!), I had to live with the
burden of guilt on my shoulders. Needless to say, this guilt
would not permit a close and intimate fellowship with God. Unforgiven
sin often became the occasion for further sin - someone who is already
dirty does not worry about keeping himself clean! Finally I would go
back to a priest for confession, and the cycle
is repeated over and over again.
What a difference now that I’m a Christian! I still sin
sometimes (more often than I wish!), but as soon as I repent, I can turn
to God in prayer and confess to Him. Fellowship is restored and I can continue in my walk with God without
much delay. Unconfessed and
unforgiven sins would not hinder my relationship with God for any length
of time.
Also, previously I could not be sure of the love of God. How could I,
since I was taught that although He forgives me, I still had to do penance
to make up for the "temporal punishment" of my sin? Clearly there was
still something in the way between God and me, and no matter what I did,
I could never be sure that I have done enough to satisfy Him. After all
most Catholics expect to go to purgatory when they die because they
would not have paid enough during their lifetime.
Now it is different! God forgives me my sins because of the sacrifice
of Jesus, His Son. His blood cleanses me from all sin. He receives me
with open arms because of Jesus. Yes, He still disciplines me, and I
feel pain and sorrow for my sins. But God now treats me as a father
deals with his son. I am
fully assured of His infinite love and acceptance. His love is the
greatest motive to avoid sin and to live righteously.
I wish you'll experience the same liberty. You are not trading one
religion for another religion! If that were the case, doubts will
continue to torture your soul. You will
not find forgiveness or peace by joining a Baptist church. You will find
peace and life and forgiveness when you personally repent and
turn to the Lord Jesus Christ by faith. Speak to Him today, tell Him
about your fears and failures, ask Him to grant you repentance to turn
from your former way of life, and to give you faith to rest your
salvation completely in His nail-pierced hands. This is a matter between
Christ and you!